from your lips she drew hallelujah

Turn your audio on if you're reading this. Listen to the first song on my playlist... 

are you? 

"I did my best, but it wasn't much

I couldn't feel, so I tried to touch

I've told the truth, I didn't come to fool you."

This song gives me the chills every time I hear it.  

I like the whole song but those three lines... Sometimes I feel like I could just apply them to almost all aspects of my life. I know she didn't write it, I know lots of other people have covered it too. But her version shakes me up. 

Right now I'm still processing Stone Butch Blues, and also my first serious girlfriend. and also my gender issues. and also my most recent ex. and with every new word I write, or person I think of

I didn't come to fool you... 

I sometimes feel like I'm shutting down, and sometimes today is just a new day to look forward to. Sometimes you have to have the courage to grow... 

Sometimes it's a cold and lonely hallelujah.