Transitioning, Friends and Body Hair

I wanted to talk about hair. 

I have not started Testosterone, I don't know if I ever will. but a lot of guys talk about body hair that has grown in once they start T. One thing I've noticed is that a lot of the changes guys mention in the beginning of their transitions, I have had since starting testosterone. My voice cracks randomly, I go between high and low all the time and I am acutely aware of it because my job is on the phone. Some guys mention new happy trails, chest hair, hair on their upper thighs... Yeah I have a lot of hair. In order to be more "girly" I used to shave my arms and my legs and even my stomach once or twice, but I felt naked. I like my hair. Maybe it makes me feel more masculine? Maybe that's what I was previously afraid of? I know hair is such a strange topic, but I know it means a lot to a lot of guys, as it does to me, in some ways. 

An interesting observation: I don't like hair on my legs but I think my happy trail is kind of sexy, if only I had a sixpack (I'm working on it, haha). 

Another thing I wanted to mention, or discuss is friendships. Three more friends have kind of "discovered" shall we say, my wanting to transition, and my mom almost found out but I said it was a joke... Anyways: My three friends that found out have said that they support and love me no matter what. I will never be able to tell them how greatful I am to them for their friendships. They mean the world to me and I love them with all my heart. It's sometimes hard to tell your closest friends, the ones you're most afraid of losing, so when they just come out and let you know that they're here for you. It's amazing. 

I think last week I posted the video of a compilation of photos from the trans march in San Francisco, well I showed the video to my mom, forgetting, maybe in some freudian slip, that at the end it says all photos taken by "Shira/Sam Geiger" she flipped out. I told her it was a joke and we left it at that... I'm just not ready for all of that. 

In other news, 

I might be taking a trip to Brazil in two weeks :)